Tried to upload a design, but my laptop restarted.

Stupid updates… I did not consent to you restarting to install updates, you crazy digital whoozits!

ANYWAY.

It is 1am right now as I type this, and I have been awake since 6am. I had to work at 7am and, after I got home, I played games on my phone that I try to convince myself to be a form of ‘brain training’. Then we (my partner in law-abiding citizenship, m’lord) went out to eat a satisfying, but high calorie meal. I told myself that it was fine since I hadn’t really eaten at work, and that I’d work out when I got home. The second half of that ended up being a lie.

Then I followed my hamster boy around guitar center and watched him play with everything he could touch. When I got home I decided I needed to do something productive, so I started working on my Amazon Merch and CafePress site, simultaneously. This involved not just trying to get my slow, outdated, bastard of a laptop to cooperate with me in uploading images, but also trying to figure out how to use the product preview shots on cafepress as section dividers. I also was tweaking a design on GIMP because the lense flare effect got cut off from one image in the top.

And then my computer went blank and wouldn’t turn back on. Once it did “Updating. Please do not turn off your computer….”

If I had a faster computer, I’d still have a hard time, but damn wouldn’t it be nice to screw up at twice the speed!

I do, eventually, want to use this as a platform to share completed projects. In the meantime, you might find that this blog holds true to the title- endless rambling.

Anyway, this is one of my favorites from my original set of designs. I updated it recently and am pretty happy with it, for the most part. Of course, there’s room for improvment, but I think it’s cute.

Right now it’s able to be purchased on a variety of items from my cafepress site (link is on my blog, or you can find it on my facebook page, too). It’s going to also be added to my Amazon merch page, provided I can get that far. I’m not too thrilled that I can only submit one design per day, but I like Amazon and I trust them. To be fair, I’ve been pretty on and off with an addiction to online shopping, so maybe I’m a little biased.

In personal news, my friends, my boyfriend, and I are planning on doing a cruise this year after we all get our tax returns. I’m betting I end up paying Uncle Sam, hahaha, but I’m in charge of mine and my guy’s plane tickets, and he’s purchasing the cruise tickets this time. It sounds so extravagant! I cannot believe that I’ve had the opportunity to go on as many trips as I have within the last 5 years. A lot of that is because I have a partner who enjoys the adventure as much as I do, and shares the responsibility for it all equally. A lot of it also has to do with my job. I don’t get paid a fortune, to be sure, but they generally treat me well, I like the people I work with and work for, and I enjoy luxuries like discounted hotel stays (I cannot help you with that; it requires a special verification) and a decent amount of paid time off.

Now, if anything happens to my car, for example, I’d probably be sol since my job kind of takes up a lot of my time, and while I try to keep a set schedule for my staff, I don’t really have one myself so much anymore. This means that it’d be pretty hard to get a part time job that I could make any sort of time commitment to… BUT, I’ll jump off cross that bridge when I get to it.

So what do I do until then? I find things that keep me happy or occupied. I watch the Three Stooges while I draw, or Mob documentaries while I try to tweak existing designs. I cut up cool shirts that are made for men and sew them into women’s shirts (I know that’s such a 16 year old girl thing to do, but I’m 2 of them in age, so I do what I want!). I fight with my sewing machine and churn out coin purses that look so easy to make on youtube but get all wonky and crazy  when I accidentally put the pedel to the metal (plastic) and go speed racer with the damn thing. I make gothy looking stacked bows…. those I actually really like. I screw around with clay and I draw on paper and make molds of things. I force myself to workout and then feel so good once it’s done, provided I don’t get interrupted by a work related message. I sleep.

I love sleep.

But I hate it! What a waste of time. I wish I didn’t love it so much, and I wish I didn’t need it. Imagine what we could get done if we didn’t have to lay in our beds, involuntarily hallucinating while our eyes are closed and our snoring throats wake up our loved ones.

I guess, speaking of sleep, I should consider going to bed before I lap myself. It’s 1:28am on a sunday and I’m here, howling into the internet about nothing.

It’s when I need sleep that my brain is like “HEY WHY DON’T YOU GET MORE CARDSTOCK AND SELL PRINTS? YOU HAVE A PRINTER! YOU SHOULD MAKE MORE BOWS. DID YOU CLOSE THE GARAGE? WHEN ARE YOU GOING TO USE UP ALL THAT FABRIC THAT YOU SPENT SO MUCH MONEY ON? REMEMBER WHEN YOU FARTED IN FRONT OF YOUR CLASSMATE IN 4TH GRADE AND TRIED TO PRETEND YOU DIDN’T? WHAT ABOUT THAT TIME YOU ACCIDENTALLY KICKED YOUR CAT WHILE WORKING OUT AND YOU HEARD HER LITTLE JAW CLICK? SURE SHE WAS FINE BUT DON’T YOU FEEL BAD? WHY DID THEY CANCEL FREAKAZOID? YOU SHOULD LOOK THAT UP. RIGHT NOW...” and so on and so forth. It’s like someone took all the thoughts in the library of my mind and threw them in a giant industrial clothes dryer, while a caffeinated Spongebob tries to read them out loud as they spin around.

That metaphor tells me I need to sign off.

 

Until next time, I’ll type at ya later.

~St☠☆